currently

reading Sky in the Deep, by Adrienne Young.

listening to Theodosia Reprise, by Sara Bareilles.

lighting all the beeswax candles.

diffusing all the cozy oils.

feeling the thinning of the veil.

seeing the change of the seasons.

walking the girls to the bus stop before the sun rises.

loving our new framed artwork by Sarah Guthu.

feeling less sad about our old traditions that are no longer possible.

enjoying seeing the girls’ new relationship as school friends as well as sisters.

questioning some of my choices lately.

putting faith into the process.

dedicating to our new budget.

making big plans that make it worthwhile.

preparing to listen to all the Christmas music starting tomorrow.

wishing it was acceptable to get a tree on November first.

knowing it would last since we’d cut it down, fresh.

wondering why we have to arbitrarily wait until after Thanksgiving.

 

reading The Book of Essie  by Meghan MacLean Weir.

looking at a huge stack of books to catch up on.

listening to The Band’s Visit.

wishing I’d seen it when I was in New York.

relishing in the fact that I’m on summer vacation.

not regretting the fact that I worked full time+ this spring.

loving that I can focus on my one job and my kids for a while.

planning some small trips around Oregon this summer.

spending as much time in our back yard as possible.

adoring the new setup out there.

being excited that Jesse is on vacation next week!

holding my kids close to me.

raging about the fact that so many children aren’t with their families.

calling representatives daily.

wishing there was more I could do.

knowing that there is.

trying to find it.

reading Beasts of Extraordinary Circumstance by Ruth Emmie Lang.

listening to Christmas music (obviously).

loving our house in its twinkle-light-glow.

watching the houses around us pop their Christmas lights up.

dreaming up some fun new changes.

waiting.

looking at all the Christmas books with the girls.

remembering all the memories of childhood holidays.

slowing down to get ready for Advent.

walking in the rain with friends, whenever I can.

getting used to our new normals with the changes this year.

thinking of new ways to get involved and resist.

regretting that my gung-ho attitude that was kindled last November has dwindled.

knowing that it’s not too late to change.

understanding that something has to change.

gazing at the sky.

determining whether or not those are snow clouds (they’re not… yet).

getting ready for a fun filled Christmastime.

hoping.

reading Louisa Meets Bear.  Kind of.

listening to my Spotify Autumn playlist.

eating lots of apples from our apple picking adventure (pictured above).

looking at Christmas albums and waiting.

wanting to start #30daysofgratitude right now.

seeing leaves changing colors.

wearing sweaters and pants.

loving the tiny drops of rain outside.

breathing in the cool, clean, smoke-free air.

missing Alma while she’s at school all day.

enjoying so much alone time with Harriet.

subbing later this week.

looking forward to it.

working on developing a rhythm to our days in our new normal.

feeling sad that we had to leave our old preschool and our old normal.

(still) fuming about the fact that I was dragged into the bullshit.

wanting to forgive, but finding it hard.

trying to focus on where we are now, and telling myself that different doesn’t equal bad.

having faith that it will all work out.

focusing on the good things – which are actually quite plentiful.

moving on.

reading Angelfall by Susan Ee.

listening to Dear, Evan Hansen on repeat.

getting things in order for our summer.

planning our days.

wishing it were already summer.

feeling big nostalgic feelings.

watching Alma in her last few days of preschool.

thinking about big confusing things.

wanting it all to be more clear.

loving Jesse.

trying to keep my cool.

moving onward and upward.

building fun things.

quilting fun quilts.

watching dumb shows.

wasting too much time.